'I'm gay but I think it's wrong': TOWIE's Vas Morgan reveals heartbreaking struggle with his sexuality... and claims his family find him an 'embarrassment'

Vas Morgan has made his name as an opinionated and larger than life figure in hit reality show, TOWIE - but the controversial figure says he is hiding a secret heartache.

In an interview with a magazine, Vas talks about his struggle to come to terms with his sexuality and claims he has a strained relationship with his parents over his life choices.

'I'm gay, but I think it's wrong!' Vas told the publication. 

My family find me an embarrassment': Vas Morgan talks about his struggles with his sexuality in a heartbreaking new magazine interview

He added: 'I feel like I could be with a woman but I guess I wouldn’t be as happy as I would be if I was in a relationship with a man. At the moment I don’t think I would be happy with either. 

'I have never had a serious relationship. I have never been in love, I feel like I’m always forcing it with anyone. Is that normal? I feel I would never be able to bring a man home to my family. 

'My mum and dad will never accept it. Even my brother and sister who have been so supportive, I know they still feel uncomfortable with it.'

The blogger, broke down during a recent episode of TOWIE after he got confused about his feelings and tried to kiss his female friend Jasmin Walia during a night out.

Talking to his best friend, Lauren Pope, he revealed that he could be bi-sexual, before the pair held hands and both burst into tears.

Referring back to his family, Vas added that he believes they would rather he kept his sexuality a private matter, because of their religious beliefs. 

He told aTeen: 'They don’t understand someone being gay and really judge me. I think they find me an embarrassment to the family and that makes me feel bad.

They don’t want me to be openly gay on the show which is hard. They genuinely believe you go to hell if you are gay.

'I’m not that religious so I don’t think I will go to hell but I have to admit I still do think that it is wrong. I think it is unnatural. That’s my personal belief. 

'I don’t want to offend anyone but that’s what I have been brought up to believe in. My family will never accept it. 

'My family told me if I have to be gay then stay in the closet and basically just make it my dirty little secret. The lowest point in a way is now because I still don’t have the acceptance of my family.'

Vas says he battles with coming to terms with his sexuality but says he is grateful for the life he has.'

'I do think I am a good person and I do like and love myself. I just don’t love being gay. That’s the only thing I am unhappy with. But then if I was straight I wouldn’t have this life. 

'I wouldn’t be on TOWIE, I wouldn’t be best mates with Lauren and have my clothing line. And I do think I wouldn’t have the close friendships I have and the support I have now if I was straight.'